Now I know why I have this idea of writing ...
Sometimes being with Zach is like being a life gaurd. I can sit for hours and watch his breathing or just make sure he isn't hurting himself but biting on a cold rag that I give him.
I think in pictures so I just see my story as movies in my head. Lately, I had a breakthrough and let my past experieces into my movie. I am getting used to it. Just when I was ready to give myself a break from being frustrated with my writing goals...... the truth is revealed. I need this, I need this movie to play in my head and I need to think it's more than just a coping mechanism.

AHA!