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GUILT

Some times I pretend like nothing is wrong. I believe it so much that I start bitching myself out for not being more successful. I am such a fucking slacker. I was proabably never going to amount to anything anyways. I just haven't gotten it done. Why do I still live here? Where are the vacation pictures? Zachary swimming with the dolphins. IS this all I can give him?

Do you think three Easter baskets will make up for it? He picked out three baskets when he saw them. I realized then that he won't have easter with his cousin. I didn't want to fight with him in the store. The truth is I wanted him to win even if we did. He knows almost every present he ever gets. I know It's sounds so great, "The Nanny." The truth is he is a two person job and I rarely leave them alone. I can't risk loosing her.

He is freaking out now and I am in a mode. How can I blame this on me? I recognise this search mode going through my mind and red lights start flashing. I'll go comfort him.

I know we are OK. Oh the snake of guilt the slithering fuck. I let my gaurd down. It's those lonely easter baskets. I'll think of something ........now that I have named the beast. He likes those plastic eggs. I can hide them and he'll find gummy lifesavers in them and maybe some hot wheels. He will be surprised, maybe even looking for a bunny somewhere. Sometimes it's not so bad when I pretend like nothing is wrong.