Blog Blessed.
I am not sure how it works, but I have been blogged blessed. I told the ugly truth and admitted at least here in blog world, how hard it is for me. Just because I admit it doesn't mean I want to quit. I just needed to exhale. Maybe admitting that a power greater than myself must be keeping us together allowed me to let it in more. Maybe my Grandmother and my brother who are on the other side ( they are dead) are learning some metaphysical tricks and hooking Jippy up! I don't know but help has arrived. I've been wanting to get Zach a campnion dog for years. I was on a waiting list for two years and then got told that they closed the list. If I got the dog, it would mean I have to move. I have been looking for a two bedroom place that would allow a dog and be near the hospital and good schools. My sister found the dog and my parents found the trainer. There is really no such thing as saying no to my sister. Zach is sick and he really wants a red bicycle and a white dog named Bruno. If you have seen Tripplets of Belville, you'll understand. He relates to a non-verbal boy in the story. It's so sweet he closes his eyes during the booby dance in the begining, even when I am not in the room. My sister wants to give zach/ all of us that awesome Christmas moment. My mom has the red race bike covered. Along with a trainer to place the bike on, because zach can't pedal and steer at the same time yet. Zach will get his dog Bruno for Christmas and then he'll go back for more training but we'll spend some weekends together, Mom,boy and Dog. He'll come to live with us when he is fully trained. No way, could I get a dog and a one legged child up a flight of messed up wobbly stairs. So I went on line and starting searching for a place. A place I have looked for before and it didn't exist in the past. In one search, I found a place that is perfect for us. It's a few blocks away from Zach's ex- step mother. What the hell? Yes, ex-step mother, who was once my arch enemy during a nasty divorce. She was thrown into a world that got her kicked and bit and trampled on. She took the worst from zach before we had any medication. Because of her commitment, Zach and I both love her. It was actually hard to hate her because she was one of the best people in the world to go have coffe with. It's a weird world. Stranger still is that her husband tolerates her ex step child coming over and monopolizing the big screen TV! Zach will spend the day there just watching the same movie over and over again. I am happy to be their neighbor and it's a pretty good laugh thinking of James gettng the big news. This place is also close to BFF's work. Elona can stop over for lunch or before she goes home. I'll never stress out about running out of apple juice or toilet paper. It just isn't going to happen to me anymore. Hot damn! I want to cry and sing something loud and religous. I feel like this place is mine. I just hope there isn't anyone else feeling the same way. It's a competive thing to try and get an appartment and this is a little house. I claim it, it's mine. Thank you blog people, I admitted to you that I needed help and just sat with it and wow it arrived overnight. I actually feel like packing.. LOL : )