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Friday, January 19, 2007

I knew I needed to make room for something.....Yeah, well, it's not for my writing. I care about my story. I don't always care if I write it. I hardly care if I write it well. I was the little girl that always said, Tell me a story! I need a place to go in my mind. I need a world to hide in. That's what movies do for me now. I can't think of one good one right now. I need to find one. That's the problem with me......I always want a new story. I want a new story, tell me another one. I want something to carry me away for a while. You know the time it takes to watch a movie is the perfect amount of time for vacationing from your own reality. Too much of a break and fuck it is too hard to come back.

The new wheel chair is awesome. It rolls and you have to keep up with it. The old one you had to really push.

Originally uploaded by jippyjabber.

I learned that this chair will be in my life a lot longer than I thought.

I learned that in order to help his leg, I have to give him medication that will make everything else worse.

I learned that it might take us 8 months to get him up to the best dose.

I learned that there is something wrong with his eyes.

I learned that he will have fainting, fatigue, depression, and all of the other symptoms will get worse from puberty.

I learned that he had has seven unexplainable or not very well understood medical conditions.

Mytochondrial disorder

Pain aplification disorder


Complex Regional Pain Disorder in his leg with foot drop



Rabdomyalosis ( twice so far which means it probably will happen again)

One doctor told me, in his clever little way of saying things, that he's never had a patient with _ _ _ _ and ___ so we don't know what will happen......Then we all laughed like crazy people. We laughed a lot becuase he knows it heals me. It brings me up, so the bad news just knocks me down to normal.

Oh and we need an EKG with in two weeks because heart trouble including failure is our biggest concern right now.

I know the EKG will be fine. Look at him he's too cool.....His heart is made of gold. He's helping me look for Coke Blak

Originally uploaded by jippyjabber.

I am definetly moving. I can't do this on the second floor. It has to be. But the new medication, we tried that once already. It's bad and I'll spare myself by moving on.........

I am ready......I can get ready for everything but........ I have to keep breathing when he's suffering. I have to channel the good and I can't feel everthing that he has to feel. I must do this differently. I can not bare his pain. I don't know how he does it. I do not know how he can have such a love for life. He's so happy. He loves Hot wheel cars.

Originally uploaded by jippyjabber.


cinemagypsy said...

That is the coolest Coke Blak spotter I have ever seen!

max said...

Ahh! Coke Blak is spreading.

I blame Cinema Gypsy.

Jippy said...

Max, you really should blame cinema- G not until she tried to make it at home homebrew was I brave enough to go out and get some and see what this is all about.
45 calories of superhuman powers! Thanks cinema-G

cinemagypsy said...

Oh that stuff helped me clean an oil spill. Whodathought?